You made a place in my heart from ‘Jhalak Dikhlaa Jaa’ season 4. Seeing you dance made my heart flutter.
I remember being awed by how a man could dance so gracefully. I remember slowly becoming a fan and then developing a major crush on you. I remember being jealous of Ankita when you professed your love to her on national television. I remember being happy, proud and excited, when you made your debut with a movie (Kai Po Che) I was eager to see being adapted, especially because it talked about my favourite things, cricket and friendship.
I remember telling anyone and everyone that you were someone to watch out for. This crush might have swayed after a while, but I continued being an admirer of your work, especially with movies like Shuddh Desi Romance, MS Dhoni and your last one, Chhichhore.
What breaks my heart the most is how someone who inspired so many to follow their dreams, gave up on his own. You being an outsider, made a remarkable place for yourself in the entertainment industry, and that gave hope to aspirants, viewers and fans alike. You also proved that someone with an excellent academic record can opt for a career in the arts and entertainment industry too.
Your death comes as a shock because yours was a face that always had a smile. That you were battling depression, only goes to prove that we shouldn’t believe what we see and that scars of mental illnesses run deeper than those of physical health.
I wish you’d reached out to someone, anyone, even one of your many fans, and that would’ve made you realize how worthy you are.
May you find peace where you have gone.
You shall be remembered well.
R. I. P.
A girl who once had a crush on you and will be your fan always
Note: The featured image of the blog post is an artwork done by Rishika